Day One!

Current weight: 221.6
Starting weight: 222.6
Weight lost: 1 lb.


Down a pound! - Haha. It's the difference of weighing yourself in the morning or afternoon, but I'll take it!

Today is day one. I will be honest, I woke up today not feeling like doing this. But, it is an act of surrendering my will to God's. I don't want to have anything have control over me. I will not be a slave to anything.

My plan for today is to re-read Chapter one in my Overeaters book and count calories. Roughly I would like to eat: Breakfast- egg sandwich, lunch-not sure yet , dinner- casserole and carrots. I will redo this blog before I post it because I am not feeling to confident in it.

AND I will spend time with the Lord! Amen!

Preparing to Launch

This is a big step for me. My incredible husband, Rob, suggested that I start a blog to write down and share my love-hate relationship with food. Through years and years of struggle, I am just now beginning to feel that my story truly may be able to help others. I am not at my goal weight. I am not currently eating very healthy. I don't have an exercise routine. I still feel out of control of my food addiction.

BUT I have hope. This is the difference between where I was a few years ago and where I stand today. I have hope in the midst of my struggle. Not because I am strong, but becuase I am finally grasping the greatness of what God's strength can do in my weakness.

I am a food addict. It sounds like the funny thing we say to each other after we just ate too much ice-cream with friends, but the reality I deal with is no joke. I have a food addiction similar to an alcohol addiction or a drug addiction. It has not been a rare occasion in my past for me to hide food, to eat a "second dinner" when no one is around, to lie about food and eat to the point that it hurts to move. Binge eating is not an openly discussed topic, but I do hope that my story can inspire others who are hurting to be free from this controlling addiction.

Much of the boldness I have received has been through this incredible book- Twelve Steps for Overeaters. I have only read chapter one- and have read it about 14 times. I am not letting myself go on to the next chapter until I know that I have really grasped the first.

I am going to set some goals for myself to accomplish this next year. I feel that this can be a year of transformation, if I am willing to let God come in and use my weakness to show His glory.

Goals:

1. Give up my binge "trigger" foods (any form of pasta and going through drive-throughs)

2. Eat three (and only three) pre-planned meals a day, totalling roughly 1500-1600 calories

3. Develop a fuller daily devotional life, so I can surrender my will to God's on a daily basis

4. Join an OA (Overeaters Anonymous Support group

5. Get to an maintain a healthy BMI (meaning I need to lose roughly 60 lbs)

Pre-Launch Weight.... Let's get those number down!

Through the grace of God, I can do all things!