BUT I have hope. This is the difference between where I was a few years ago and where I stand today. I have hope in the midst of my struggle. Not because I am strong, but becuase I am finally grasping the greatness of what God's strength can do in my weakness.
I am a food addict. It sounds like the funny thing we say to each other after we just ate too much ice-cream with friends, but the reality I deal with is no joke. I have a food addiction similar to an alcohol addiction or a drug addiction. It has not been a rare occasion in my past for me to hide food, to eat a "second dinner" when no one is around, to lie about food and eat to the point that it hurts to move. Binge eating is not an openly discussed topic, but I do hope that my story can inspire others who are hurting to be free from this controlling addiction.
Much of the boldness I have received has been through this incredible book- Twelve Steps for Overeaters. I have only read chapter one- and have read it about 14 times. I am not letting myself go on to the next chapter until I know that I have really grasped the first.
I am going to set some goals for myself to accomplish this next year. I feel that this can be a year of transformation, if I am willing to let God come in and use my weakness to show His glory.
Goals:
1. Give up my binge "trigger" foods (any form of pasta and going through drive-throughs)
2. Eat three (and only three) pre-planned meals a day, totalling roughly 1500-1600 calories
3. Develop a fuller daily devotional life, so I can surrender my will to God's on a daily basis
4. Join an OA (Overeaters Anonymous Support group
5. Get to an maintain a healthy BMI (meaning I need to lose roughly 60 lbs)
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| Pre-Launch Weight.... Let's get those number down! |
Through the grace of God, I can do all things!
